I just got notification that my garlic has shipped.
I'm sitting in the feeding chair, attempting to draft my first newsletter for this website idea I'm working on. I'm struggling and not really getting anywhere; my words are stiff and blase and trite and all I can think is "STUCK STUCK STUCK!!! I SUCK SUCK SUCK!!!"
I have been procrastinating doing all kinds of things. My email box is full of newsletters and articles and notification of things I've been tracking and researching for this website. All of them for the last week are unread. I was compiling a list of articles I wanted to reference in my first newsletter, local happenings I thought parents would be interested in checking out, and now I have procrastinated so long that some of them have already come and gone. Three weeks ago I looked at website templates until my eyes crossed and they all looked the same and I could no longer imagine what my website might look like. There are 3 ripe strawberries on the vines that will be bad by tomorrow afternoon, yet I haven't plucked them. The basil is big and bushy and begging to be eaten, and yet it sits, a feast for the bugs. CJ is on the cusp of rolling over, and I just keep thinking, a little more tummy time, maybe tomorrow, a little more tummy time... I used the last of CJ's can of formula tonight and thought, oh, I'll just get more tomorrow morning, I have back-up in the diaper bag...
But the garlic, the garlic shipping today, well... that somehow puts things in perspective. My garden has been lackluster this year, and since the baby I have barely had the presence of mind to water, much less grow too much more than the crabgrass that is taking over the side yard. We took a class on growing garlic and ordered several varieties that should grow well in our area. Garlic is the one thing we are planting this fall, the one thing we think we have the time and energy for, one thing we have never tried before. A successful garlic planting this year means not having to buy garlic next year and the year after that, it means gifts of stinking roses for friends, it means scapes to try in stir-fries, it means we can put something into the ground that we can nurture and propagate that will continue to bear fruit for seasons to come.
The garlic shipping means things can no longer wait. Its time to dig in.